me, myself and i

alcohol & fags, the vices of life.
how nice, they turn me on.
getting intoxicated brings the life out of me.
otherwise i'm just plain jane.
or am i?

people say i'm wild, am i?
or do i just take a different persona when i'm high.
split-personality some say.
or am i still in search of an identity?

two extremes of characters i am.
a decent, nerdy, motivated geek
and on the other hand, a wild chick.
who am i? is my reality when i'm sober or when i'm high?

in search for myself, trying so hard to define.
i guess i'm both at different realms of time.
i guess i'm versatile, a chameleon in some form,
adjusting to my surroundings just to belong.

who am i? i guess i'll never know.
or maybe i do know and this is what i am.
two extremes, two of me combined in one.
2 souls trapped in a single moment in time?

maybe, maybe not. i just don't know.
maybe nobody can ever be defined?
this is who i am, i respect it and i embrace it.
i have moulded into me.

~i love me, haha. narcissistic self. woo hoo!