my life analysis

~i just broke up with brian. several reasons to this. from the start, i knew we were two extremes. in terms of maturity level, education, family background, ideals in life, socially etc, we're miles apart. despite knowing all this, i gave my heart into the relationship 100% until this year when i started to view my life more seriously. then, we slowly drifted apart, and i admit to infidelity a few times. all the while, i stuck with him thinking tt all guys are bastards n will never fail to cheat their gal, all except brian. tt much i gave to him. to me brian=loyalty n if he was the only one who could assure me tt there was noone else, he is who i wanna be with till the end. to my shock, i found out he was secretly in contact with certain gals n exchanging msgs of affection. this may not equal to the times i cheated on him, but to me, it was cheating enough. i never accept anything below perfection. i'm not angry, neither am i sad. all i feel is betrayed and i blame myself for trusting. in this one and a half yrs with him, i've accomplished and learnt quite a few things.

1)i helped made another person's life more colourful (whole new perspective).
2)i know now that all guys are bastards (yes, including him).
3)i learn who i am and my goals in life (see below)
4)i realise i want to be single for a long time to come (at least till after degree).
5)gals should stick together no matter what (the guy is always wrong, sorry to those gals).
6)i deserve someone better.

~in assessing and analysing our relationship, i discovered what some of the traits i want my guy to possess are. i know it's almost impossible. but this is the ideal one mapped out in my mind. i may settle for someone slightly less, but never extremely majorly less. here are some things of my ideal man.

1)To view education as important either for the benefits or for personal satisfaction.
2)To be earning either closely or slightly similarly to me in future.
3)To be a family man who adores his parents & siblings and will never put them in second place.
4)To be loyal and never cheat.
5)To be honest in whatever he does.
6)To share and have similar ideals in life.
7)To be courteous and have good social etiquette.
8)To be able to connect intellectually and maturedly.
9)To exchange and share important things in life with each other so tt we both grow together.

~i've also figured out the direction in my life. currently taking my degree in psychology followed by masters in aussie. also taking my driving license. taking one step at a time. slowly, but surely i'll get there. here are some of my lifelong dreams.

1)To be a successful psychologist specialising in child psychology.
2)To attain the highest education standard (PHD) and to be recognised as Dr. Laura J.
3)To write and publish a book.
4)To travel to every part of the world.
5)To start an organaisation called, specialising in helping females suffering from mental illnesses. 6)To continually upgrade myself by taking courses such as dance, pottery, languages anually.

it's my dream to fulfil all these that i want for in my life and i'll do anything possible within my means to attain my goals. cheers and hope u guys achieve yr goals too.